Mistress Nikki,
Ok, here is some feedback on what i thought, was good, bad, and
questionable.......but first let me tell You that everything You did
was amazing, it was truly great, in the areas of punishment, as well
as clamps, and smacking my balls around, and especially anally, that
was great as well. I really can't give you much feedback on these
areas, because everything was new to me, i enjoyed it, and wished
i had more of it... Areas that were bad were not really any areas
that You did, and to be honest i thought You could have and should
have gone farther in a lot of areas in amusing Yourself, since i guess
i may have a high pain tolerance......on questionable, just a few
question that i was wondering.....how did You calculate the 3 hour
session? because i thought that 3 hours was 3 hours of being submissive,
with You being dominant, e.g. once we were back in the hotel room,
roughly around 5:30 until 8:30 i would be doing the session....but
W/we met at 4:30 roughly, went downtown, came back and then did dinner
which was great, but i think that it was around 8pm when You left,
which as well as 3.5 hours You spent with me, but i was under the
impression that the trip downtown and dinner would be non-exclusive of
the session time, but i think You must have thought it was, so let me
have Your feedback on this if You could please. the reason i ask is that
i paid the extra money for the session, and i guess i was under the
impression that it would be 3 hours of beatings, torture, etc...and
i know that You know that i'm still in school, with limited funds, but
i did scrape all that together, because i wanted the first session to
be "special" for both of us.
Also i was wondering how You felt about the session, in whether You
enjoyed it, whether You thought i was a good "potential slave" and so
forth. i honestly didn't really feel a "submissive" "long-term" connection
with You, though i am still totally submissive to You now, i don't know
if it is still just my first time and i expected different or what not,
i really can't explain it, as i sense that i am unsure on whether i want
to continue my training with You as my Mistress.....i am sure those words
are very hurtful potentially, but i think as in any "relationship" there
must be a click, and i didn't really feel one, though, i am still dying
to be submissve, more so now, than ever, i wish i was waking up every
morning to a crack on my ass and crawling on the floor.....i felt that You
may have clicked with me, but i am also unsure of that.....i found You to be
a very intriguing person, and someone who is a great conversationalist, who
has really seen a great part of the world, and very much so that You speak Arabic.
i am sure You found me to be somewhat intriguing as well, since You didn't
know that much about me, but as You can tell, i'm very much a rationalist
and realist to some point, where i analyze everything and try to figure
out what i need to be doing, where i need to be going to get where i need
to be. and i rationally tried to think about all of my submissive tenedencies,
which i will not hide, but if anything, are growing stronger after O/our first
session, but at the same time, i really just did not feel a connection to want to
come back to serving You, why i can't understand, its like when You love someone,
You don't know why, You just do, You feel that chemical inside of You loving that
Person...and i didn't feel it, now granted maybe i didn't give it time, nor try to come
back a few more sessions before i tell You all this, but i would like to get Your feedback
on what i spilled out to YOu.....i hope that this has not made You irate, and maybe with Your
years of dominanting, You can tell me this is normal, abnormal, ok, acceptable, unacceptable, and
so forth.....i will await Your response...Thank You again Mistress Nikki, for a wonderful and
amazing time, take care.
Peace,
ryan
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